Relapse/remit/koan

Another pattern--is this a remit/relapse cycle of some kind? Not MS-symptomatic, but perhaps MS... "inspired"?

A great "energy treatment" on Wednesday. I feel, for a while, completely renewed. Positively dripping with philosophical/spiritual insights.

Here it is the end of the week, and I'm at least moderately un-renewed. I don't even want to get out of bed.

Saw my herbalist Wednesday. He said, "Energy treatments don't last. Einstein told us everything about how energy relates to matter." The five-element people have known for millennia that mind, spirit, and body are interrelated. I've been putting a lot of attention into mind and spirit, trying to get at least one (if not both) of them unstuck and liberated. Getting the body "unstuck"... we're not there yet, I guess.

I'm on a new herbal "blaster," trying to clear what's currently in my way. A dose every two hours. No side effects except lousy taste... kinda reminiscent of, at best, bong water. Jury is still out as to whether it's helping. Sometimes I think it is, sometimes I think it isn't. Ride it out for the weekend and check in on Monday, I think is the plan.

Recording my wife for some voice-over stuff this afternoon. Sing and play the organ in a concert tomorrow. Today should be easy, tomorrow's going to be... interesting. Taxing. But, with luck, possible (at the worst) and enjoyable (at best).

Well, that's life for you. Isn't that the biggest lesson of the MS road? "That's life?"

According to my doctor, one of his MS patients has said, "Whatever it is that makes us get MS in the first place... is what makes us the only kind of people that can deal with having MS." An interesting koan: whatever brought this upon you is precisely what enables you to live with it.

I've said it before, and I'll say it again... humor like that, you just can't write.