Tuesday, August 25, 2015

Who can say?

Making the effort to chat with you folks... it's working!

I'm trying to tune my morning Bathroom Stuff, trying to make the dealing with that particular adventure into something less taxing and thus, less draining of the entire subsequent day.

Sent a note to a former student of mine who's off at Yale. Facebook depicts her as simply radiant, so all's well with her. I [65 underlines] THINK she's a rising senior this year, but I dunno... I told her she might hear some of my music back at the old Alma Mater, but more news as it happens. When it happens. With luck, not "if" it happens.

Still need to work on music. Still not quite bringing myself to engage it... I did find some tea in the archives, Yin Zhen I think, it ain't oolong but it ain't bad. Another morning strengthener, I hope.
Ordered the usual Medical Stuff, which I need for the aforementioned morning medical ritual. So so far, the day goes well.

Still struggling with the New Pill. Gotta take it precisely and only once a day, I'm still trying to find the time that works best; I may try evening this time, "afternoon" was yesterday's attempt and it didn't do what I'd hoped. The usual Fight with the Medical Companies, exacerbated by fights with insurance, continue to make things difficult. I need to use Medical Thing X times per day, thereabouts. Oh no, they say, you don't, you only need 2. No, I need X. No, you need what we say you need.

This doesn't work out so good.
In other news, also on today's list, a house call! Yes, a house call! An acupuncturist will be visiting my house, treating me on my living room couch. Now, for MS treatments, you ain't gonna beat that!

A chef friend of mine will be caregiving tonight... We think it's prudent to leave someone with me who can actually walk & such, but with any luck, I won't need to be picked up off the floor, it doesn't tend to happen any more but one doesn't want to be surprised. We talk, we laugh, we get good yummy dinners... perhaps I'll show him some Food Wars, an anime series that seems to be a cross between Iron Chef and soft-core porn.
Although our main interest is, frankly, the cooking part. This week they seemed hooked on curry, of all things.

Perhaps I'll even work on music before I give up. Perhaps I won't. As Aragorn and many others posit in the Lord of the Rings...

Who can say?

Monday, August 24, 2015

Probably not

Wow! Another blog, soon even! Wow!

Don't have much to say, have next to nothing new to report... Will I do music today? I don't know. Do I want to? Well, at least a little, but I dunno if there's gonna be enough power to push much.

Going back to sleep, after Alab/B-san woke me at 2 and 5. Wasn't too het up with getting more awake to tweak the computer at said times, did manage to kinda get back to sleep but not particularly well, what with leg aches and such adding to awakitude.
Making high-mountain oolong today, a nice way to start the day or to enliven the day, too! Even a little bit is a gift.

I'm taking a new pill to calm B-san, it's once a day, the doc office says morning or evening, depending on what helps you more, but I haven't figured out what the best time is. Each time has its own Issues, picking the time to solve some issues means that others aren't seen to & thus there are still Issues for me to deal with.

Haven't decided whether to just give up for now or to at least pretend to continue...

Probably, give up. I'll have another cup of oolong, see whether Wife needs her morning tea, and go to bed. Catch last night's John Oliver, maybe whatever Crash Course In... is new today, maybe I'll catch another viewing of last night's Rick and Morty. None of that get music written, but maybe I can sleep.

And there's no ostensible reason not to return to the studio at some time today even! Probably won't happen...

But might.

But probably not, alas.

Sunday, August 23, 2015

Good enough is...

My it has been a while, hasn't it?

A choice has been coming before me in the early mornings... Alan / B-san / my ever-interesting bladder frequently demands a 3 or 4 AM emptying, which of course I am happy to provide, but then it's back to bed and awake awake awake!
Eventually I get back to sleep at least sort-of kind-of, but then the cat wants something and demands attention. I will not feed her until the sun has risen, there's no way I'm going to train her to expect food in the middle of the night, she seems happy with 4AM stroking, but I don't need help staying awake, dang it!

Acupuncture clock says the Lung official gets a little extra energy between 3 and 5 AM, but Lung doesn't seem, given what little I know about such things, to be absolutely perfect for diddling the computer, so I haven't yet decided to take the pre-dawn plunge.

A long-time friend of mine is having some Issues, and I won't go into ANY details 'cause that wouldn't help, but said person is having huge problems which may, from my jaundiced perspective, be ameliorated by changing the way said person thinks about said problem.... which is always hard to do, alas. We MSers, and let's amend that to "we humans," all too often need to change the way we think, just ask the Buddha (as it were), but the way we think is certainly buried by our --OK, my-- getting stuck in Dealing With The Disease. It would be so easy if The Disease were actually a villain that could be put in its place!

Then again, as those of us who watch Steven Universe and such things like Marvel's Agents of SHIELD can tell you, that doesn't always work out so good...

But but there is good news! Just sitting at the computer seems somehow more doable than it was just a week ago; I actually got some music done, even! Sure wish I could do more... but yet, that might even be possible, who can say?

But you can tell, things are better because I can chat with you folks, and simply sitting at the machine to do this at all, is a triumph. A triumph!

This is one of the great lessons of traveling the MS Highway...

Just do something.

Doesn't matter what. Just do it.

Every triumph is a triumph.

And by definition, "good enough" is good enough.