Wednesday, July 30, 2014

Words to live by

Bathroom remodeling proceeds apace. I may take to the bed until they drive me out with their enthusiastic banging or reassuring (for them) AM radio still playing the hits of the '80s, like Donna Summer Disco Madness.

Wife and mother-in-law (that'd be her mother) having fun. All goes well.

I'm not writing music again, yet, in'sh Allah, but I'm sitting up at the moment, at least.

New pu erh tea this morning, courtesy one of Karen's friends. Quite nice, actually!

And I think I'm hitting the wall already, so that's it, for now. Pay attention and go with the flow, valuable words to live by, MS or not.

Tuesday, July 29, 2014

What you can get

It has been an interesting week. Wife has been at ComicCon, having the time of her life--which I am definitely all for, I've never really been a "vacation" type, who goes somewhere just to recharge, so when someone does it (recharges), I'm definitely for it!

Have been very tenderly cared for by Karen's mother, visiting from Louisiana. A godsend, she has been, and we have had quite a bit of fun. Even introduced her to the yummies at Ten Ren, including almond-milk black tea, which she loved! (She's a black-tea person, not the oolong kook that I am. Lord knows, definitely not a fan of matcha. Oh my, no.)

House Guys are rigging the back bathroom to make it more handi-friendly. It's already much more wheelchair-friendly, they widened the door and everything. Although, the more they work on it, the clearer it is that the people who converted the garage into a bedroom/bathroom combo should probably have watched a few more home improvement shows. Several more.

But even things like simple handles and handrails make a huge difference. Huge difference. I'm well out of the "wall walking" stage I used to be in, what little "walking" I do is pretty much my P/T, but I'm able to do it with handles and other things to carry my weight, so as far as "bad" goes, it's actually pretty good.

MD/acupuncture/dharma talk day, today. A fine thing to do in a way-too-hot LA day, when the A/C's may be off while House Guys work on the bathroom, rerouting a wire that runs directly through what's best described as WTF territory. They'll fix that, too, and good for them!

Karen's mom will be with us for at least a week more; it'll be nice for Karen to have some "mom time," as well as providing additional generous care for both me and the house. (Moms always clean amazingly, don't they? A blessing for us all, the gift that keeps on giving.)

Meanwhile, we'll be enjoying the A/C at home, since outside the phone predicts its gonna get up to nearly 100. Which my legs like, but wracks my core; I'm both heat sensitive and cold sensitive.

Well, take what you can get, right? And sometimes, it can be quite wonderful. Surprisingly wonderful... even delightfully wonderful!

Friday, July 25, 2014

If you let it

Hotter than the hinges of Hell, here in Sou Cal. Thank God, every one and each of them, for my humble little window-mounted A/C's.

My handyman-neighbor is working on the back bathroom, to make it more wheelchair-friendly. One of the first things he put in were handicap bars (for support in "walking" from the door to the commode), which were a godsend. Irritated me, at myself, for waiting so long to have that done. Very easy it was, just get the correct equipment and use it correctly.

Why that seems so bizarre a concept for so many people in so many contexts, I have no idea.

Wife is having the time of her life at ComicCon. Quite the amazing place, from what I see from this distance...

I don't go, for several reasons, but a very important one of which is WIFEY NEEDS A VACATION. By herself, without MS-wracked-invalid-husband to take care of. No, she's there to do Her Things in her Own Way by herself. Of this, I approve. Big time.

I don't think I have been on a "take time to heal yourself and just have fun vacation" in years. If ever. I've had fun going paces, but never just cut the strings and take care of yourself and just have fun. Well, I do take the time to enjoy my favorite izakaya when I'm inVegas, but that's pretty much as close as I get to a "treat yourself" vacation.

Must be nice to do that. Should do that more, somehow.

Been reading and enjoying Ram Dass on the web. Many good thoughts to think about, good questions to put before myself. A lot of my own processing seems to call for simply using the Witness. Rather than "that annoys me" or more (too) commonly "They annoy me"... "They" does change an awful lot, just be truthful. "That pisses me off" isn't as healthful as "I see that. I feel angry," because that path will show you where you need to do work.

If you let Them, They can be your teacher.

As can MS.

If you let it...